This weekend is it?

Well, looks like Margie, Jolayne and Steph have a good chance of winning!
I played a mean trick on my OB yesterday by being a full 6 centimeters dilated! That was one surprised and scared doctor. She wanted for us to immediately go to L&D and she would meet us there and we'd get this show on the road.
However, I'm very much shooting for a natural childbirth and know that there is little they could do at this point that doesn't have a chance of me losing that goal. My doctor really wants to break my bags of waters (which, she says, she is surprised isn't already gone), and odds are that would set off labor for me (hopefully similarly to what happened with Lori). BUT, if it didn't set off active labor, they'd have to induce me and put me on pitocin, because a broken bag of waters has an expiration date, so to speak. By breaking it, they'd be starting a clock of how much longer the baby could be inside me.
And, if they put me on pitocin, I'm pretty sure I'd get an epidural. Pitocin makes for stronger, more intense contractions, often forcing your body to do something it wasn't ready to do on its own. This is generally ok if you're already numb from the waist down, but I'd really rather not be. Mind you, inductions and pitocin have their place in childbirth- I just don't see it being necessary with me, with how determined this baby is to come.
Worst case scenario is they give me pitocin and it STILL doesn't start active labor, in which case I'd get an emergency c-section. No thanks.

That, and we aren't even technically full term- that's not until Monday. So, we talked with the doctor a bit (she pretty much BEGGED us to get my bag of waters broken) and decided we'd go home and see if we can't get labor going on our own. We took a nice walk around Target and the Mall, then came home and took Lucy for a walk (her first walk in months, I swear). I don't know if that made any difference, or if I was already at this point, but I'm definitely feeling different. My contractions hurt now, my back is aching, I couldn't sleep a wink... so while I think we are close, there wasn't anything that said "go to L&D now". Our biggest hope is my water will break on it's own, hopefully tonight.
It is a little tempting, now, knowing that at any moment we could head to the hospital and have them break my water and be sure that this is the end of it. It gives me some feeling of control, of having a plan... BUT, I finally realized after debating it for some time, that the only part in my control would be the breaking of my water, and nothing that followed.

With all these recent developments, we've decided no matter what today is my last day at work for at least 8 weeks. Now THAT is a great feeling.